Yes, I am still hung up on the medication issue. I just don't know what the best way to handle this is. The lowest price I have found for Pristiq is at Costco's pharmacy, which you don't need a membership to use. $178.92 is still a lot of money. If I thought generic Effexor would work as well, I'd switch in a New York minute, but I tried damn-near every drug on the market before settling on Pristiq and none of them worked even ALMOST as well for my depression, anxiety, and OCD tendencies. I am kind of attached to the ability to get out of bed, leave the house without fear, and turn pages in a book without turning them back and re-reading the last word three times (yeah, I know, it's dumb, but if I'm not medicated I HAVE TO). If I get the job I'm interviewing for tomorrow, I really want to put my best foot forward, and if I don't my mental state is already going to be in the crapper. The question is, is it worth possibly having my phone and/or electricity shut off to stay on Pristiq?
If I get the job, I'll just go ahead and get the Pristiq, whether that means getting short-term insurance coverage that will help with the cost or just paying out of pocket. I'm not going to get a job this good and then lose it because I can't stop crying or touching things the right number of times. That would just be dumb. If I don't get the job, that is where the decision gets harder, because it would mean there's no steady paycheck coming in on the horizon (I love Temp Agency #2, but it doesn't pay THAT well). However, it would also mean that things here are about to get super-ugly, and I don't want to do anything to compromise my mental health any further than it would be by things like talking about handing the kids over to my ex indefinitely, getting evicted, etc.
What do y'all think? What would you do? For the record, Hotter's answer seems to be "GET THE DAMN PRISTIQ, WHATEVER THE COST. I'D RATHER REJECT MY DONOR ORGANS THAN BE AROUND YOU WITHOUT PRISTIQ IN YOUR LIFE." Thanks, honey. I have four more pills, so I need to figure this out soon.